frustration

so here i sit trying to work on my website. i actually have energy and time (sort of - at the very least to the expense of sleep) - frustration has set upon me because i cannot log into my ftp login. is this another denial for safari users? i did however try to access through internet explorer but again frustration because it will not load for some odd reason. i am the only user on this behemoth of a computer that i own. i like it that way i’m the only one to blame for any issue that i have with it. so it is my own fault on many levels. i have to add more art work, photos and such. plus the link to this blog. i have news entries. things to do things to do things to say and only frustration to show for it. ughghhh!!! i can’t even call anyone for help because all known persons to myself are normally sleeping. watch though tomorrow when i complain about said frustration they will undoubtedly say, i was awake. you should have called.